wwwwwwwwwwww

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 08:30:59 GMT

I feel like someone threw a rock
right into
my
fucking
spine

Sun, 15 Nov 2009 06:30:27 GMT

I've come to the conclusion that I can't talk to anyone when I'm drunk. Cuz when I do I just end up getting pissed off, but at whom I'm not sure.

I can't type at all lately. It's driving me insane.

sammich

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 04:29:22 GMT

Ahhhh this roast beef mozarella in sourdough is so good after throwing up my breakfast this afternoon. You don't even know *sammichgasm*

So yesterday I was at the DSA when this girl came up to me and we started talking and then I found out she had a painting class with the same teacher who I have drawing class for. And we both agreed she is the worst art teacher ever. Then she offered me pot brownies. That was weird.

I think my roommate is afraid of me

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 05:11:20 GMT

I think I need to stop freaking out about school so much.

Funny I realized this after making such a whiny-bitch type entry. But I'll leave it up as reminder to myself to not be so bosnian about it.

Well if end sup not working out, let it be known: Je n'ai rien vaillant; je dois beaucoup; je donne le reste aux pauvres.

And yes, that was pretentious.

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 16:32:25 GMT

I don't get him.
I come up to him with problems like my right breast is sorer than the left one, or that I'm not getting a single A in any class and am probably failing 1 of them, and he says "Don't worry about it now."

Well that's a lot of fucking help right there; I guess possible breast cancer and flunking out which means being rejected from the university of your dreams a second time just aren't big problems amirite?

I don't want to worry about money, I don't want to go to class at 9 in the morning today, I don't want to do anything except possibly get so wasted that I melt into my chair and not have to worry about any of this shit because it's obvious the odds are hopelessly stacked up against me and everyone and everything I care about.

Oh and if my Math teacher thinks he can fail me after spending 10 hours a day for 4 days studying for a midterm then I swear to god I am going to cheat on the next test.

Best suggestion for dressing up as a Willamsburg hipster for halloween:

Wed, 28 Oct 2009 18:14:04 GMT

"Put a bit of sugar under your nose."

Hats off to representropy

Sensory overload

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 22:36:40 GMT

Today was a good morning.

Wake up beside my love, stay in bed for an extra two hours, and take a bath for lunch. And then have sausage links, overeasy eggs with hash browns, a pancake, and tea for bunch. Mmm, decadence.

IDGAF if this is a corny entry because that is exactly what happened and I love it <3

Now, back to reading about the rape and slaughter of Kickapoo Indians at the hands of white settlers in Illinois. Mood whiplash I guess?

more crap than is necessary

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 23:59:03 GMT

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Frosted Butts

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:11:36 GMT

List form fuck yeah

- Travel: The folks are going to NYC for Halloween. I feel dumb for turning it down. I need a break. But I know I'll just take my laptop and study for midterms the whole time if I go. So every known force in the universe is now actively preventing me from relaxing. GDI I can't make any decisions.

- Transfer: The saga begins: on Monday I call the admissions office at Mills and plan out what I need to do. My other choices include UCLA and University of Indiana- Bloomington. I'd choose more bay area schools but Cal has a shitty art department (not ragging on the school itself, just the major D: ). I'm hopefully visiting Bloomington winter break with Adriel to check out the IU campus, so I'll make my decision applying to it then. UCLA I definitely want to try applying for, but I'll have to wait until I have more credits.

- Health: I've had a lapse and started smoking occasionally again. At this point though, I'm ok with it. I know I have good self control, cuz I've only been smoking at parties and such. Fuck all those people who are like 'OMG have one cigarette and all your progress is undone!!!!1one"

- I saw Milk for the second time last night and it was still good.

cool story bro

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 01:24:33 GMT

I don't usually post lyrics because it's sort of an Livejournal clich'e, but this song is good:

Well I'm craving for a cigarette
Hey give me a light
Feeling kind of thirsty
Give me something that bites
Sure been hanging 'round here
For much too long
All you crazy people waiting for my song
I said

Well here I am
I'm just another one night stand
Anyway I don't know why I'm sad
For my fan club

Waiting for an autograph
Well you must be mad
Standing in the pissing rain
Must be a drag
If that's what you wanna do
I won't say no
If you wanna see more of me
See me after the show
I said

Well here I am
I'm just another one night stand
Anyway I don't know why I'm sad
For my fan club

Well you send me pretty flowers
While I'm slashing my wrists
Read those little letters
Through my smashed out mists
The dream I shock you
Is my nightmare
I'm the freak that's on display
So stand and stare
I said

Well here I am
I'm just another one night stand
Anyway I don't know why I'm sad
For my fan club

Memememe

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 06:45:17 GMT

It has come to my attention that I haven't been drawing much for my personal benefit. So! I will start a meme.

Post a personal anecdote. It can be anything from some crazy dude on the bus to the time you found out your uncle Jeb murdered babies. It's up to you!

In response, I will post a comic version of that anecdote.

GO!

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 06:49:07 GMT

Movies I loved when I was 5 but upon review are godawful:

1.) We're Back!

2.) Super Mario Bros.

3.) Rock-A-Doodle

I'm so disillusioned D:

ITS AWWWWWRIGHT

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 03:21:14 GMT

sup gaiz.

Folsom St. Fair wasn't that great TBH. Waaay too crowded, too many shops, not enough kinky demos. What the hell is the point if there aren't any demonstrations? D: Although I did get to try on corsets, which was fun.

In other news I looked at my grades for Creative Arts 101 on Ilearn and I got a D+ on the event report I worked superfuckingomgwtfbbqhard on. So I was like OMG HDU >( and reviewed the report. Apparently they didn't bother grading half of the answers. GG you guys made me flip my shit for no reason.

Lydia Lunch in a week!

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 19:55:04 GMT

I don't get what is wrong with my body. Suddenly I am sniffly and sneezy and headachey and my eyes are watery all the time but no feever. And it can't be the flu cuz I got a shot before this happened. WAT.

Yesterday I saw a movie called Flesh Gordon. Which I assumed was a porno but then there was no sex. And about the only notable thing is that there is a monster at the end that's voiced by CRAIG T NELSON. Which I learned from Wikipedia.

Also, congradulations to my darling Adriel on becoming official secretary of the Residence Hall Association. You sexy typist you <3

I hate shitty metalcore bands who don't know what the fuck they want their music to be

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 07:13:42 GMT

Been stressed out lately. And I've only gotten about 5 hours of sleep per day. If this goes on for another month or so I swear I'm destined for a stroke at 25.

Today is the autumnal equinox, but up here seasons never seem to be anything other than foggy season.

I really like my new dorm-mates. They are way nicer and chill. For one thing my roommate, unlike the last one, actually seems to allow PDA whenever Adriel is over. And all 3 of them are film majors, as opposed to my last ones, where one was a business major, another one was a nursing/childcare major, and one was a crazy-bitch major.

On the bad side, our dorm is right next to the parking lot. I realized this did not bode well last night when I heard someone screaming "FAGGOTSFAGGOTSFAGGOTS" at the nearby DSA for five minutes.

Unrelated: Some dude once told me listening to Sunn O))) while on acid will make your dick hard. Or something.

'Night.

Beachy Head

Sat, 19 Sep 2009 18:44:59 GMT

Amoeba music shopping spree debrief!

Cornelius? Yes.
Throbbing Gristle? Yes.
Liquid Liquid? Yes.
Lightning Bolt? Yes.
DEVO? VERY YES.

So yes, last night was a triumph, I'd say.

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 19:18:40 GMT

Beck: Muse is "brilliant," buy their new album;
Muse: Please retract your endorsement

And here I was thinking I'd never like anything related to Muse.

Wed, 09 Sep 2009 04:27:58 GMT

I think I'm tone deaf. Or my guitar is untunable/needs to be re-stringed. I'm not sure. I MUST FIND A SOLUTION TO THIS DILEMMA SO I CAN BECOME THE NEXT ROBERT FRIPP IN 2 WEEKS.

Had a five-day weekend and it was waeome. Listening to Adri and Tom jam, reading Disinfo books, Labor day bloc party, playing clue, among other things.

I finally played Brawl for the first time today. Holy shit that game is chaotic, and I say this as someone who used to play 2+ hours of Guilty Gear in high school.

Also, I realized last night, after talking to Bridget while she was having a marlboro, that quitting smoking was easier than I expected.

I have a headache.

Ths is probably because I've been listening to post rock for 2 days. Actually I think that should have the opposite effect but w/e.

Authentic frontier gibberish

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 00:02:47 GMT

I haven't really talked about this at all on lj, but some of you who know me IRL might know I'm planning to transfer, since I'm having to pay more for a school I'm not getting much out of. One of the schools I'm planning to fill out a transfer app for is UC Los Angeles. So of course, when I read the SF Chronicle over breakfast Friday morning, this article is on the front page. GG University of California. I'm sure this will make my parents even less supportive of my efforts.

I've become reclusive ever since I quit smoking Thursday. Haven't seen anyone over the 5-day weekend besides Adriel(no surpise there) and Carly. Somehow I think this might be a good thing since 90% of my circle of associates go on half a pack a day and I just know it's going to trigger me. I know I still might have a cigarette occasionally after a month of this but I just don't want to have a huge lapse right now. It's fucking awful. Every time I see someone smoking on the street now my body tenses up.

Noam Chomsky is speaking here in a week so I bought tickets. God, him and Lydia Lunch? That's two once-in-a-lifetime events right there.

I'm going home for labor day tomorrow. Normally I wouldn't write about this but the fact that the bay bridge is going to be closed for OVER 5 DAYS and I'm going to take what looks to be a 2-hour BART trip makes this extraordinary circumstances.

Tue, 25 Aug 2009 01:43:06 GMT

I have officially bankrupted myself on art supplies for my drawing class.

I decay my bff jill?

Mon, 24 Aug 2009 05:16:58 GMT

So CA 101 is mandatory for people in my living community. Which means I have to drop my astronomy class for it. Laaaaame. BUT! I'm going to involve myself with the Gay-Straight alliance on campus this semester. Because I like LGBT issues. And it looks good on a transfer app.

PS: Corbin set your Hookah soon up so I can OD on Shisha plz.

Finally back to posting art!

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 22:15:27 GMT

Made this little thing in celebration of finally getting my pc set so I can use photoshop again...

I got mad tracing skillz. And yes, that is Debbie Harry with a turtle's head.

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 21:08:37 GMT

ART 231- Drawing I
HIST 120- History of the U.S. Through Reconstruction
PLSI 200- American Politics
ASTR 115- Intro to Astronomy
MATH 70- Algebra II

Still waitlisted for Algebra even though I'm 1st in line. Also I really really want to take ASTR 116 (Intro to Astronomy Lab) but they're all full. Guess I'll have to get a permission slip from the professor from 115 or something.

AAAAAIIIIRRRR

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 03:53:55 GMT

I really wanted to see Up this summer, but I haven't been to any movies since Watchmen waaaay back in March. Ah well, maybe seeing Inglourious Bastards with David will make up for it. D:

I'm so relieved to be back in the dorms. Loved catching up with my posse and stuff. I think I'll still be spending my free time at the Mary Ward smoking area even after I've quit smoking regularly.

Still missing all my neighbors though. They're a pretty different crowd from what I had in my old 'hood. The whole complex I'm at right now is kind of like Versailles: We're all secluded off from the rampant crime and poverty in the city, we LOVE to talk shit about everyone else, and we got A++ conversational skills.

Ran into a friend from high school that I had a falling out with. We got on the same bus. I pretended not to see her. And no, I'm not a coward. I just didn't feel like dealing with her. I can't go through with all that passive-aggressive bullshit she pulled on me the last time. I run with a different crowd now and she's not a part of it.

And that's fine.

I managed to get paid $400 for the mural I painted over the summer. Made the deposit today. I wish I could've used it on new clothes or a tattoo, but I think it's mostly gonna go to paying for textbooks and tickets to see Teenage Jesus and the Jerks. Can't really complain though, since these are like necessities (And yes, that includes the latter 8U)

I think I'ma make myself some tea.

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 18:52:08 GMT

If ENG 214 doesn't add more seats I will scream until my vocal chords break.